My Own Seven of Coins Situation

I am dealing with my own Seven of Coins (Pentacles) situation with my writing. I talked about the situation here in describing how I am stuck in between my own thoughts (Two of Swords). Thanks to you for all of your great suggestions in response to my post.

Remember the Seven of Coins is a card of perseverance and one that symbolizes a time of contemplating action...and waiting (with faith).

Waiting? Aren't I supposed to be doing something in order to make something happen?

If you remember from my earlier post, my husband (graciously) offered and suggested that I take a sabbatical:

Time off.
No To Do list.
No structure.
No purpose.

OK. The last one is not true. Even without doing something I am still of value, right?

Ever heard the phrase, "We are human BEings, not human DOings?"

One of my favorite quotes from the book Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach, is: "Not every hour is billable."


This is a good reminder to me because when I had kids, and ended up having them SO close -- 17 months and 14 minutes apart (a single and then twins 17 months later), my life became a time management game. Could I get it all done? Even when a wrench got thrown into the plan (several times a day), could I make every single second count?

A common thought was, I have 7 minutes before I have to leave the house, what tasks can I do to most efficiently fill these precious 7 minutes?

As a Type-A achiever, it's so easy to become obsessed by my own productivity. Perhaps there is a support group for this type of affliction: Over Achiever's Anonymous (OAA).

I could just imagine an OAA group support meeting, "Hi. My name is Sheri and before I came to this 9 a.m. meeting, I did yoga, 30-minutes of cardio, took a shower, got a meal in the crock pot, got the kids to school, folded two baskets of laundry, and ironed three shirts, not to mention dropping off the library books on the way to the meeting and going to the recycling center on my way home)."

If you can relate to this, I look forward to meeting you at the next OAA meeting.

So what is SO uncomfortable about emptiness, the void, down time, etc.?

I have started to study the Course In Miracles. (I squeeze it in between yoga and getting the kids to school).  :) If you've ever studied this philosophy, it's an undoing of sorts and a rebuilding of beliefs. The basic foundation is this:

Nothing real can be threatened.

Nothing unreal exists.

Herein lies the peace of God.

The other day, I read a quote that hit home for me:

Recognition of meaninglessness arouses intense anxiety in all the separated ones. It represents a situation in which God and the ego "challenge" each other as to whose meaning is to be written in the empty space that meaninglessness provides. The ego rushes in frantically to establish its own ideas there, fearful that the void may otherwise be used to demonstrate its own impotence and unreality. And on this alone it is correct. (Workbook page 21)

And so I ask myself...what is so fearful about the void? Time being empty or not used to its capacity? These are concepts I would surely explore if I had the time.

Maybe I can ponder this in the 4 minutes I'll be on the potty later today.